the jury OVER Substance & Looks

Looks are superficial. We all know that fact. But however deep we do know about it and however a cliché it is to everybody, superficiality is simply in the blood.

I have forever dreamt of wearing at least a medium-sized pair of pants (28″-30″), but man, I still struggle reaching 32″ after almost ten years of massive reduction. Yeah, I lost seventy-seven pounds and that chum, is a whole lot.

Still, I dream of having the matinee idol waist line [spare me the looks, ‘coz that’s really impossible =P] that I could ever be proud of. I may be 5′10″ in height but I still feel really WIDE. It of course results to my depression. Wahaha.

I met a guy who, at his early 20’s is already a powerhouse of confidence. He always butts in with full conviction in an “I’m-not-cute-I’m-gorgeous!” attitude. I know he could pass as a print model at least [But why do other people with drop-dead looks tend to stay more humble than those guys who were just blessed with some enhancements? Maybe because they never needed anyone’s confirmation that they are being liked/loved. And so DO I! But that’s beside the point] I am still affected by the sore fact that I am not even close to the epitome of charisma.

There’s a great feeling in me that makes me think that something like lack of a sharp nose and chisel-shaped chin can contribute to your lesser chances on landing to a perfect place in the office… or the society , in general.

I don’t know, but I feel that people just get interested with you when you look exemplary good-looking… Not that I am bitter about it, but it’s just not sooooo…. Er… Catholic? [=p]

I just noticed that those who are easily loved are the ones who have smoother skin, almond-shaped eyes and SLIM-toned bodies without even lifting a finger [even after hearing one’s Carabao English and nose-picks a LOT].

Why do people of my caliber, that considers myself the average-type, who at the very least is a law-abiding citizen, a tax-payer [BIR yuhoo! fyi!] and someone who values family [understatement] and friends so much tend not to get the accolades being sought-after by many? LOOKS over SUBSTANCE, this is a forever battle of superficiality.
One thing that this guy I was talking about mentioned that almost dropped me off my chair was: “I’m gaining weight quickly, and that’s shameful to my friends”. *dang* When did getting a bit heavier become taboo?

Now, are looks a huge basis of true and never-fading love?

If your answer is YES, then you’re the ULTIMATE SUPERFICIAL SELFISH SKIN-DEEP ANIMAL!

But in fairness to the YESes, who says all is fair in love anyway? =P

Now, to answer the question why I don’t seem to get what many others are rooting for is just simple — MAYBE I ALREADY HAVE IT, I just didn’t know! *winks* [That’s the spirit! Bwahaha!]